600 Seconds at Lunch - I have a right to be happy because...

I am not sure happiness is a right. I do believe, however, the biggest block on me being happy is me. I am fighting to accept myself and be myself and more often than not I lose. I am getting better at it though and one day I hope to let go of the brain washing and bullshit of my childhood and past and really be true to me. Hey, who knows, one day I may even allow myself to feel happy to do that too. I know I fear rejection and disapproval especially from my horrendous family who are so disappointed with me. One, I am a girl, two I am not a doctor, and three I am not married to Mr. Billionaire. OK to bad, perhaps I don't want any of that, but hey that is my mother, expects everyone else to live life just for her benefit and her way.

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