And It's Goodnight From Me - Discworld

Discworld is a satirical fantasy series by Terry Pratchett. "The Lord of the Rings" meets "The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy" is quoted on the back cover blurb of "The Colour of Magic". I am a huge fan of the world travelling through space supported on four giant elephants stood on the back of Great a'Tuin. From the beginning I was grabbed by the hapless 'wizzard' Rincewind and his travelling companion Twoflowers. Indeed there is a similarity between these two and Ford Prefect and Arthur Dent from "The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy". Then there is the Luggage which is seemingly infinite in how much it can contain much like Dr. Who's TARDIS. Discworld does however stand up in it's own right. Terry Pratchett's characters from Rincewind to Granny Weatherwax and Death himself are all strong and each brings some to Discworld as a series and to the various novels.

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600 Seconds at Lunch - I have a right to be happy because...

I am not sure happiness is a right. I do believe, however, the biggest block on me being happy is me. I am fighting to accept myself and be myself and more often than not I lose. I am getting better at it though and one day I hope to let go of the brain washing and bullshit of my childhood and past and really be true to me. Hey, who knows, one day I may even allow myself to feel happy to do that too. I know I fear rejection and disapproval especially from my horrendous family who are so disappointed with me. One, I am a girl, two I am not a doctor, and three I am not married to Mr. Billionaire. OK to bad, perhaps I don't want any of that, but hey that is my mother, expects everyone else to live life just for her benefit and her way.

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And It's Goodnight From Me - Moving on

Sometimes we have to accept things we do not want happen. We cannot let what may be very painful events stop our lives. Of course we have to allow ourselves to adjust an accept, maybe even grieve if needs be. But eventually it is time to bite the bullet, close the door on the past but not forget it, and get on with the job of living and look to the future. We often hear of a need for closure on something, more often than not that is found within ourselves. Oh yeah, it is the devil's own job to find it of course, but it is there. Sometimes it takes some counselling, advice, or just simple peace and quiet to help us find it. Accepting changes or facts we do not like or want is not easy but if we allow ourselves to focus on what is positive in our lives we can move on and look to the future.

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600 Seconds at Lunch - What kind of help will resolve your feelings?

Hearing Andy say "I love you" normally gets me back on track when I am feeling hurt or down. With my family that is at least once a day with yet another put down or disparaging comparison to Mr Golden Balls, my brother. I know I should be used to it by now, of course I should, and most times I am really not that bothered by it. I have built my own life and it is good, OK certainly not good enough for 'them' but hey I am happy to be me, Andy is happy with us and my boys are wonderful so whose loss is it anyway - it is certainly not mine. Just sometimes it would be nice to feel my family actually give a damn and that is when it hurts.

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Morning Pages - Freedom Fighter

What is a freedom fighter? Is it some one who battles against a tyrannical despot? Is is some one who battles for personal freedom? When some one is facing an inner struggle to be themselves the battle for self identity is every bit as terrifyingly desperate as one against a tyrant. Finding one's identity in the chaos of life can become is one most of us face at some point. Whether we are searching for inner peace or an answer to personal confusion it is a fight for freedom, to get life back on a balanced track. Destiny may have it all mapped out for us but we being human have a habit of doing the wrong thing and thus ending up facing a battle for personal well being. So yes at times we are all freedom fighters for our own sense of freedom, the freedom to be.

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